You’re nothing more than a memory, that I haven’t learned how to forget yet

So many people are getting marry! This year, Ive already received so many red bombs! Haa..
Its opt to be a happy year, happy events!

Earlier today, I was out with BFFs at LOL.. I saw that my lil cousin, Ping, posted her happy event.. Her bf, Aaron proposed to her at Nasam Tower.. =) So happy for her loh.. May all love birds be happy together and ever! =)

But another side of me, felt kinda emo. I don deny that I will want and hope to get marry but at the same time I feel fear, worry.
可能是因为周围的人个个都快要结婚了吧？我不是怕我嫁不出去而是怕嫁错人， 做错的选择或不能全心全意的爱一个人. People says, look for someone who is more financially stable cos once you get marry, there will be alot of finances involve.. I do wonder, arent love suppose to last? R do dotes and loves me alot but something is still not so right.. Maybe bcos we are still quite new to the rs.. People tot that R n me have been together for more than 2 years+ or even more.. But we arent. Only a year +. Haa..

Ah yi said this to us (cousins): Always remb your happy moments and vows to keep marriage ongoing. For those who is still searching for the other one, be patient and don rush into it. As marriage is a journey not a destination.

I told Ben, Im not in a very good mood. Alot of things running through my head. I also told Ben about the marriage thingy. He told me, don get marry is the best. Bcos you never knows wad gonna happens. Ben is someone who I know will be there for me. Although I seldom meet him, he love to talk cock till some time I also cannot stand him but he is someone who will also do stupid acts to make people around him laugh. He is someone who can bears with my grumble and nv left me when I was at my lowest. At least, he nv promised and fail me before. Maybe bcos all along we maintained a good friendship.

Anyway, don think so much.. Let nature runs it own course ba =) 该来的总是会来的啦.

You only live once, so do everything twice.

Isit really possible to do everything twice? To amend for the mistake you did before or do the things even better? Chances are not given so easily for you to do everything twice!



Walked past here... This place bring back alot of memories..



People who have been thru year 2002 - 2004 with me should know where this is. I never tot that I will meet nice people there but I was wrong. I met most of my good friends now at this place =)

People who gave me opportunity to get day job, people who let me know whats love is.. Back at those day, don really have to think so much yet there was so much happiness compared to now.

I could still remb, there was once, I gotten dead drunk at there. Someone called at 2+am, knowingly, i was so drunk, took a cab down imm, just to send me home safely. Even thou we were only friend. Isnt it sweet? But too bad, we distanced, cant even get back to inital stage.

I could still remb, the very first time I met Ber and gang, Ber dropped his slippers inside cos he was being dragged out for being too drunk! Haa..

I could still remb, Steven told me: Never be the choosen, be e chooser.

Things have changed so much since then. Its good to be able to recall e past, but for wad? If its a sad ending? Pointless if im the only one who think back and not others.

Blessed are those who can give without remembering and take without forgetting

I met an old friend few days ago while queuing up for Koi with Angela at Illuma.. Someone whom I haven saw for close to 10 - 11 years! Was chatting with Angela when he came over to ask "Are you Stephanie?"
I gotten a shock and step a step backwards; trying to recall who he is and yes, I managed to recall after thinking/stoning for 10sec.. Haa!

I said some thing stupid..
He asked, "你现在在做什么?"
My reply: "oh, 在排队买 Koi loh"

Both he and Angela was shocked by my reply and burst out laughing.. I guessed thats e usual me, when I was shocked.. Exchanged number as per his request, couldn't find a way to reject him.. His name is Andy. He didn't contact me till today, which I tot/hope he nv will.. Haa..


We held a very friendly conversation till he asked, why that time we suddenly lost contact. But how e hell will I rmb as it was so many donkey years ago. Moreover back then, none of us have a HP! Den he said, he still remb where I stay and he did tried to find me for a year cos he missed me so much. I was like -_-", totally speechless..

He continued that he even waited for me downstairs my house for a few times but didnt managed to catch me! This time, I was really stunned by his whatsapp. Totally donno wad to reply at all. Haa! Till e next day, he MSG me, saying that why I MIA 1/2 way while MSG-ing. I replied, fallen asleep! Thereafter he told me to pass a MSG to Angela that when she is in Japan, can look for him cos so coincidentally, they are travelling to Jap on the same week and he is familiar with that area cos his family stay there. -_-"

I told Angela about what Andy said and she tease me nonstop! She said "Mercs vs BMW loh" -_-" WTH right.. Haa! Cos that day, after Andy walked away, we turned and saw him entering his car. We were pretty shocked that hes' driving now as he used to loves and ride bike and used to be quite notorious. But am happy for him lah, as he turn over a new leaf and is doing well in his life now.

Andy might be bluffing that he waited downstairs my plc for me. But frankly, I was pretty touched by his words =) But Andy is not the only guy who waited downstairs for me. There was one super silly guy who used to do so too and he did so much better than e rest of e guys that I ever met =)

Life is simple, its just not easy

Back from Phuket! A 4d 3n short getaway! Athough there was a few hippcus during this trip cos we had a group of 7pax but still, it can be considered as enjoyable bah.. hmmm...

Haha! I could have a dimple, if I smile hard enough!
Been ages since I went to a beach resort. The most fun part of this trip was playing Jet-ski! The weather at Phuket was super hot and humid! Sweat alot there but I love going to Thailand because I can have Tom-yum soup all day long! lol..

Ive been travelling, travelled to most of the nearby countries in SE Asia. But if one day, Im allow/ I dare to travel by myself, this is one of the plc I put on my top list that I would want to go.

I donno whats nice there but its a place whereby I used to hear my friend talks about and I haven been there before! They once promised to bring me there, to snorkel, to sit cable car etc.. But I doubt they still rmb and they will ever bring me there =(

Memories is what is left when some things happens and does not complete completely

Chill-ed out with Liang and Jessie at Newton!

Its nice to have gathering with them like this but another side of me, felt emo.. Cos we chatted about something about how we used to gather at 304A. Then one of them said, it'll be impossible to have such a big group in future, if there's liang, there wont be Becky, if there's ong, there wont be jessie.. if there's liang and Ong, there wont be jessie and becky.. :( Then they said, you think can be like you and him meh, not paiseh still go out in a group. I told them, no choice because, you all are my friends also.

And today, I came to know that e Mr. Kaypo Liang have my blog address too! -_-" So Paiseh Loh, when he suddenly blurt it out to me.. I initially tot that not much of my friends knew about my blog cos I never mentioned about it much.

Some time, I do wish I have the courage to let all of them go. So that I wont ever hear about his things. I really don wanna care. But my circle of friends seems to rotates around him or will have common friends.. FML

Being deeply loved by someone gives you strength, while loving someone deeply gives you courage

For now, if I ever get marry, this will be my wedding song! *Hearts it*



Today is the day filled with L.O.V.E!

Happy Vday to every one I know..
Enjoy yourself, be it with your loved one or friends or family members..!

Heading out soon for my Vday celebration and I bet it will be a good and fun day for me! =)

I may regret the way we end but I will never regret what we had

One of my guy friend said this to me:
男人最怕老婆的唠叨，情人的眼泪，红颜自己的误会
He followed by: A man need to have 3 kinds of women in his life.. -_-"

I find it a complete bullshit.. Why the hell would a person need 3 different person if 1 is sufficient.. But, its hard to meet that special person that fits perfectly..

I've not been missing you but I've been dreaming about you. WTH right?! 痛是因为梦见你.



Somehow, I wish its true but I know its not..

People say, look forward, if its meant to be yours, even if 5-10 years down the road, you will still be back together..

I do wondered, why do I still think about you. 也许是我们没有好好的做个了断。没有好好的讲清楚。所以我还会一直留在原地踏步。你是否能帮我最后一次，让我们有一个机会好好的谈，好让我可以往前走.

Sometimes, Im happy that you once came into my life but most of the time, I wish you didnt. If you didnt, I wouldnt still be thinking about you till date.. Contradicting har?

Late at night when all the world is sleeping, I stay up and think of you. And I wish on a star that somewhere, you are thinking of me too

Meaningful! And at least, at the end, they still reunited even thou it was so many years later, even thou they were old, its so sweet.

Do you still love me, please tell me.



I read this... So sweet

Determine to be with u and want so much to make u the last girl that i'm going to love.. and settle down with u.. build a small family of our own.. and lead a simple life with u..

thinking of our future.. thinking of how we should have our future to be after we're married.. after i've decided u to be the women i want to be with, i've never thought of changing or having another.. becos i'm so determine to settle down with u and plans for our future.. i just can't describe how much i love u.. since i've known u, i've not been fooling around outside.. cheating u.. or lying to u.. i've high hopes in us.. thou for the past one year it has been a difficult path for us to walk but we still walk it through.. together.. and no matter how hard the future path is going to be for us to walk.. i'll still wants to bite the bullet and walk u through..

u had so much affections on me.. even going out i'll also wants u to be by my side.. i know its kind of sticky but i just wants u to be by my side whenever possible.. doing things together and sharing our joy..

i'll always be there for u.. i'm not silly for doing all this.. cos i know what i'm doing and what i'm fighting for.. Baby.. most importantly is i'm really serious about u.. thats why i've never want to stop fighting for u..

HIM LOVES HER truly and deeply..

Although now, we cant never be back together again, I wish that if there is really next life, I would be able to meet you again, be together with you once again and reconciled the love we once had.

=(

I wish I had the power to ignore you like you ignore me

Thou it was a joke, it have been ages since we laughed like that together..



They made a joke out of us, and although it was 6 years back but till now this things is still quite embarrassing har? Thats' one of our lil memories =)

A Tear is made of 00.01 % Water & 99.99 % Feelings

I read through "Unspeakable words", which made me started tearing again.. If I know, I wouldnt have read it.. Joke arh!

Do you know that each time when I get to see you, each time I'll get drunk?
因为没有说清楚也没有好好的做个结束，所以才会这样吗？

Im missing you but there's nothing much I can do...