Reminiscences

I wish I had the power to ignore you like you ignore me

2012-01-29T13:01:00.000+08:00

Thou it was a joke, it have been ages since we laughed like that together..

They made a joke out of us, and although it was 6 years back but till now this things is still quite embarrassing har? Thats' one of our lil memories =)

A Tear is made of 00.01 % Water & 99.99 % Feelings

2012-01-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

I read through "Unspeakable words", which made me started tearing again.. If I know, I wouldnt have read it.. Joke arh!

Do you know that each time when I get to see you, each time I'll get drunk?
因为没有说清楚也没有好好的做个结束，所以才会这样吗？

Im missing you but there's nothing much I can do...

where you used to be, there is a hole in the world, which i find myself constantly walking around in the daytime, falling in at night. I miss you

2012-01-14T15:32:00.002+08:00

Went DF last night and I saw someone whom I didn't expected to see.. Almost couldn't recognise him as it have been ages since I last saw him..

I looked at him a few times before I was sure.. Bernard Chua! Someone whom I used to hang out with, with him.. He changed a lot or should I say he is much fitter compared to e past.. We chatted for awhile and den I realised, time flies, period! His eldest son is 7 this year.. I even went to his baby's shower at that point of time.
But I'm sad to hear from him that he and wifey are filing for divorce now. It's a pity.. He said "有时候做朋友反而更好＂ Well, maybe it's true but .... :

Jessie MSG me recently and informed that she and Ong have signed e paper. I'm shocked to know of this news as I thought they have made up!

如果要离婚的话为何要结婚呢？Regards to this qns, some of my friends reply, you wont be able to predict wad's going to happen in future.. But shouldnt both parties try harder to maintain their rs if they knew things have gone abit haywire? Aiyah, relationship are so complicated.. =(

Anyway, all I can hope for them is they will be much happier in e future

Sometimes the cards we are dealt are not always fair. However you must keep smiling & moving on

2012-01-06T21:05:00.001+08:00

My friend shared this post on FB which I finds it very meaningful

他和她已经分手两年了。两年来他每天下班习惯性地打开她的博客，看看她一天的心情。她有时候高兴，有时候失落……他只是默默地注视着，不做一点评论，甚至删掉了浏览记录。直到有一天她博客上挂满了她的婚纱照。下面有一行小字：“我嫁人了，不等你了，不更新了。” =(

Time wait for no men.. Cherish and speak out your heart, for one day you might realised that its no longer around...

Woke up early today to wait for Singtel's installation people to come over as I applied for new Internet services..
My BF, R, drag me to IMM as it was still early. Thinking maybe he wanna go have breakfast so I tag along with him and to my surprise, he wanted to buy me a new lappy as Ive been using my current one for 6 years+? Yes, Ive a old dinasour lappy with me.. He's kinda sweet lah, cos he say its time for me to change cos he knew that sometimes I used my lappy till very pek chek.. I went to take a look at a few but decided to give it a miss as I totally have no ideas wad lappy and specs Im looking for..

Learning to be more appreciative of him, to understand him more although at times, he really will make me angry cos we have different thinking.. White Iphone 4S, im coming for u in another few days time :D

Happy 2012!

2012-01-02T05:16:00.002+08:00

Happy 2012!

Spend my 2011 last day with friends at Hollywood.. Love all of them to bits.. I haven been partying this often with GFs..

Didnt expected Liang to come down and look for me and also was shocked that he came along too.. I looked through the old photos, realised that we all look different, maybe due to our age, maybe things really changed. Even my friends say you changed alot. Abit upset but it's good cos you changed for the better.

And yes, I know.. Ive been visiting Thai disco abit too often recently but den my that group of Gfs wanted to go therefore.... Bo bian!

Cling to your imperfections, they are what make you unique.

2011-12-24T03:51:00.001+08:00

Happiness!

Its just a drama show but by looking at all these photos, it gave me a sense of happiness and actually wakes me up.. As I aged, I forgotten this theory; that happiness can actually be so simple =)

MK recommended me to this show... He said the female lead in the show resemble me. He said e way she speak and behave in this show looks like me.. When I watch e first ep, I do not think so but gradually.... Haa.. Im still halfway into the show but I kinda like this show..

Last 2 days, I was at Vincent's place for MJ.
The first day when I went over, he was still MJ-ing with his ex-student and his ex-student's friends. This particular ex-student of his, caught my attention. Why? I also donno... Haa!
His back was facing me when I stepped into the house. Maybe because he was wearing that " blue sleeveless PTI..?" As it was still 南风, I loiter around the table to watch them play. The way that group of guys talks, the way they played / touch the MJ and so more, reminds me of the past. It have been a long time since a guy managed to catch my attention. Probably it was the way he smiled and his look. He does look and behave slightly like him, slightly.. But this guy are more muscular.. :) But I guess and feel, its definitely got nth to do with K. I think I've a fetish for uniform and short-haired guy.. Wahhaha! Just kidding.. Anyway, I donno how the conversation end up but before that guy left, he told me his age, 25, same age as me..
Thereafter, Vincent told me that this particular guy and the other 2 pals that he bought along are in the service. Haa.. Maybe thats the reason why watching them MJ, reminds me of days in 304A or even days at Tham's place =)
The next day when I went over to Vincent's place, he told me that the same group played during noon time and he wanted me to help him revenge on MJ as for the 2 days, he lost about 1K to them as this particular group play 1,2. I told him, maybe 他们看我是女孩子，他们会 give chance to me. Vincent reply was: Ya loh, i think they will cos this noon, the other 2 guys disturb that particular guy, 看女人看到打错牌. Ofcos I asked Vincent why they said so? He said, the moment I reach, that particular guy gave out twice 5 double.. Haa! I cant imagine that I still have this kind of charm.. Wahhaha!

I met up with the 2 irritating buddies of mine today at Suntec, MK and Ong for dinner..

I think I get to know and finally understand something today. Sadden yet released; at least its a breakthrough for me =) Contented.. 终于明白，终于能解脱了
一言惊醒梦中人

我：我不明白为什么他能和她出门但为何不能和我？我也已经没有在和他说什么了嘛.
他：你自己有没有想原因？
我: 没有。想了但又不知道
他：Haiz -_-"
他：也许，他爱/喜欢她。对你，已经没有那种感觉。不想让你误会所以避开你。他喜欢她，才会跟她出门。
我：但是她不是明年就要结婚了吗？
他：他以前对你也是这样啊。他以前也是希望你有一天会回心传意，不是吗？也许他是在希望她明年不会结婚？
我：…. 也对啦
他：他也都承认他是一个重色轻友的人啊。我觉得我好像做了坏人。你现在觉得Ok 吗？
我：还好啦。没事！谢谢你让我知道，谢谢你让我明白，所以我也不会再乱想了，我也会真正 move on。
他：但这些都是我自己的想法，可能也不是他的.
我：No lah, 听你这么说，我觉得也对啦，不然还会有什么原因。这个是最好的答案啊！
他：你觉得你这样对你男朋友公平吗？
我：我知道我这样是对他很不公平但是你今天让我领会的事，我以后可以好好地对待他也不晚啊。我知道我的男朋友真的对我很好。只是以前没有人向我解释，我也不知道为什么所以一直在dingdong.. 哈哈。谢谢你。

虽然不是出于他本身但从别人的口中听到了，心真得很痛。有点想哭的感觉但我很感谢他对我这么诚实。我也不会再执迷不悟，不会再认为他还在。只能怪以前的我，不懂得珍惜，不懂得的等待。现在他的心属于别人了，我也只能袖手旁观。像很多很多人所说的，我和他真的是没有缘分吧！虽然很不甘心可是我真的要学习让自己死心！

I admit, I really miss how things used to be. But I also admit, that I’m learning to accept the fact that things changed.

2011-12-20T01:38:00.004+08:00

You lied. You disappointed me. We have always been nothing but a joke.

Do I really have to face up to reality and really say good-bye to you? :(

Opt to learn to love and cherish what is present and in the future instead of dwelling into a past that is unattainable.

I went to do my hair today and Liang came down to look for me.
I miss e days whereby whenever I made e appt to do my hair and someone will be there waiting to look at my end result without complaining e amt of time e person wasted while waiting for me.

Many times, I would tot of doing something stupid which is like posting a date and see if you would turn up for e appt. idiotic right?

A best friend is like a four leaf clover, hard to find and lucky to have

2011-12-16T18:55:00.002+08:00

Pre-Christmas celebrations with my BFFs...

The ones that never fail to make my day, the ones that will always be there for me... Love you girls..

We'd our pre-Christmas celebration at MBS Hotel on 14th December.. Our 1st year celebrating Xmas in a hotel and all of us managed to have a sleepover together! Its our 1st time okay?! My GFs are so sweet, specially brought beer for me as they knew I cant take vodka.. :D

Look at the number of video we took while playing Twister, Im so glad that all of us had so much fun and laughter together! Also not forgetting, the log cakes and the liquor!

You are the apple of my eye

2011-12-03T12:03:00.002+08:00

Love this show...

I find it so realistic and touching.. Heard that its based on real life story.. 那些年, 我們一起追的女孩

Life.... is full of choices for us to choose...
There's no right or wrong choices.. Whenever you make a decision, in the later part, you might or will tends to think back, whether is it the right one? But I guess the choices that was choosen was the best available choice back then but if given a choice, will you still choose the same choices?

Watching the show, make think back even more.. 如果那时候我这么做或者我那么做，会是什么后果。

Some parts in the show, felt so much like my own life... Haa!

1. 被你喜欢去过的我，很难会觉得别人会比你更喜欢我。
2. 或许，在另一个平行时空里，我们是在一起的. 真羡慕他们

我真的好想你哦！我肯定的是。。我想的是我在那时认识的你而因该不是现在的你。那时的你，不曾离开过我，那时的你，不会放弃我，那时的你，不会摆架子，那时的你，才是真真爱我的你。我真的好想紧紧抱者你。我真的很想知道你的答案，你的心里到底是在想什么。是否你最近所说的都是真的，如果是的话，我想我也不要再拖拖拉拉了。如果不是的话，你能否告诉我呢？好让我们不要再浪费彼此的时间！

I really think this is a good show, caused I watch it twice!

Dont be afraid to go after what you want to do, and what you want to be. But dont be afraid to be willing to pay for the price.

2011-10-27T03:50:00.000+08:00

Actually i donno if i should feel happy or upset but i know it doesnt feel good to be recognize by someone u donno as his friend's ex plus the someone's gf also knew who u was n yr name..

Should I be happy bcos he told his friends who I was or should I be upset bcos I was his past? My say: Sux to the max..

The best blush to use is laughter: It put roses in your cheeks and inyour soul

2011-09-18T18:21:00.002+08:00

My 25th birthday party!

Never had the intention to celebrate, it was only on Friday itself den I ask my pals come out but I was surprised that each of them put in e efforts to come for my party.. Not forgetting my BFFs, they totally ignored my group chat with them for they were planning a turn up surprise for me! Heart them muchie.. Angela came as well..

Together forever, never apart. Maybe in distance, but never in heart

2011-08-30T06:39:00.000+08:00

Been thinking wad is this song about... Google for it and found the explanation..

是有过几个不错对象（其实从分手后就没有再跟谁谈过恋爱，因为心里一直只有你一个）
说起来并不寂寞孤单（其实一直一个人生活得很寂寞）
可能我浪荡（其实一点也不风流）
让人家不安，才会结果都阵亡（根本就没有和任何人开始过，哪来的结束？）

段落解析：第一部分，桌上开始寒暄，主要是像前女友掩饰自己分手后的落寞，并伪造事实，意图使前女友认为自己过得很风流快活，但终究没有那些事，心中本来就只有前任一个，也不可能后来再和谁有个什么，但是前女友质疑为何如此风流倜傥，如今却单身一人，认为男主角在说谎，男主角就只能以“因为自己太过风流，让人没有安全感而离开”为借口来说明为何现今自己单身一人。
　　
　　
我没有什么阴影魔障（其实和你分手对我心理的打击相当大）
你千万不要放在心上（和你的现任好好生活，痛苦我自己承担）
我又不脆弱（其实我也是人，也脆弱得要命）
何况那算什么伤（那不仅是伤，还是我永远无法痊愈的伤）
反正爱情不就都这样（其实我一点也看不开）

段落解析：第二部分，男主角是要让前女友觉得自己心理承受能力很好，当初的分手根本不值得让自己有任何牵绊，假装自己在感情世界里浮沉了这么多年，早就看透这东西了。其实，男主角根本看不开，想不透，心里受了很严重的伤。
　　
　　
我没有说谎（我刚才说的全是假的）
我何必说谎（为了我的自尊我必须说谎）
你懂我的（以前的你很了解我）
我对你从来就不会假装（以前不会，但现在不得不假装）
我哪有说谎（我真的在说谎）
请别以为你有多难忘（分手这么久了还是忘不了你）
笑是真的不是我逞强（我现在是强颜欢笑）

段落解析：第三部分，男主角的前任根据当初对他的了解，怀疑他在说谎，但是男主角极力掩饰，并拿出“自己从未对自己前任说过谎”的例子来掩饰，想让自己的前任认为自己早已轻易忘了她，现在的笑是发自内心的。但是毕竟是在说谎，男主角心中的感情无法掩盖，渐渐的开始表露在外面了。
　　
　　
我好久没来这间餐厅（其实经常到这里来找我们当初的回忆）
没想到已经换了装潢（我经常来，还会不知道么？）
角落那窗口（我们当初约会时的固定位置）
闻得到玫瑰花香（玫瑰是我们当年爱情的见证）
被你一说是有些印象（其实不需要你提醒，我也会一直清楚的记得）

段落解析：第四部分，男女主角谈到了这个他们以前经常约会的餐厅，男主角为了掩饰自己，故意向前任撒谎说自己从分手后就很少来，甚至没有来过这个餐厅了，这个都已经不是当初的模样，同时影射出自己和前任也已经不是当初的关系了，女主角提到了当初约会时，经常坐的那个位置有很浓的玫瑰香，男主角顺势拿过话题说自己都不太记得了，现在被提起，仿佛还有点印象，意图影射出，自己对这餐厅的感觉就像对前任的感情，已经淡忘了。
　　
我没有说谎（我刚才说的全是假的）
我何必说谎（为了我的自尊我必须说谎）
你知道的（当初你确实了解我）
我缺点之一就是很健忘（我的确健忘，但是有关我们的一切回忆怎么会忘？）
我哪有说谎（我真的在说谎）
是很感谢今晚的相伴（感谢你对我这样一个孤独的人的可怜）
但我竟然有些不习惯（已经不是当初的关系了，现在痛苦得像要停止呼吸了一样）

段落解析：第五部分中，女主角已经开始拆穿男主角的所有谎言，男主角拿“自己前任当初知道自己健忘”来搪塞，但是傻子都知道，再怎么健忘，关于两个人的那么深刻的回忆，怎么会忘成这样？男主角已经是在自己骗自己了，再一想到自己如今单身落寞，而前女友却即将步入婚姻的殿堂。今晚她明明是来送喜帖的，自己却为了自己的自尊，形容成是来陪自己吃饭的，但是内心的感情已经抑制不住，自己甚至有些失态，只能加上一句“像我这样看透感情，玩转爱情的人，在今晚这样的气氛中，竟然也有些不习惯，所以才看上去有些感伤”。还好，男主角没说自己是突然犯病了才看上去难受的……
　　
　　
我没有说谎（我刚才说的全是假的）
我何必说谎（为了我的自尊我必须说谎）
爱一个人没爱到难道就会怎么样（当然会让我有个什么，会让我颓废忧郁，黯然神伤）
别说我说谎（给我最后留点自尊吧，在你们的幸福面前，也让我假装幸福一次吧）
人生已经如此的艰难（失去你的痛苦，生活事业的压力让我喘不过气）
有些事情就不要拆穿（我就是忘不了你，我刚才都在说谎）

段落解析：第六部分中，女主角看到男主角很难受，就问他是不是由于最后没能跟自己在一起，受了很深的打击而至今痛苦，男主角死鸭子嘴硬地反问女主角分手会让自己受多大的伤呢，自己根本没受多大影响，此时男主角心中的感受已经表露无疑，两人都是心照不宣，男主角眼看自己的面具被渐渐揭下来，就甚至有些乞求的让女主角不要再继续说下去了，承认说分手对自己已经打击不小了，生活上的颓废，加上自己和朋友屡次创业惨遭失败，让自己简直失去了对人生的追求，并认为女主角现今的处境跟自己是一个天上一个地下，她这个幸福的人就不要再捅破他这个失败的人最后的尊严。
　　
　　
我没有说谎（我刚才说的全是假的）
是爱情说谎（不是爱情，就是我在说谎）
它带你来骗我说渴望的有可能有希望（我原以为今天你约我出来是可以复合，没想到是你是来送喜帖，请我去喝你们的喜酒的）

段落解析：但是男主角依旧不肯承认自己主动说谎，意图说成是“因为爱情，被迫说谎”，并说出，自己以为女主角今晚来是想再给他一个复合机会，却完全没预料到，不仅不是这样，而且自己前任还是送喜帖来的，她要做别人的新娘了！当初和她一起的那些快乐，怎么能忘？现在，自己要眼睁睁的看着她成为别人的妻子，男主角甚至会误会，她今晚是来炫耀的！
　　
　　
我没有说谎（我刚才说的全是假的）
祝你做个幸福的新娘（你做别人的新娘了我怎么会开心？多希望你是我的新娘！）
我的心事请你全遗忘（其实还是希望你仍然能够记得我，毕竟爱都是自私的，尽管你已经要成为别人的新娘）

段落解析：剧情落幕，男主角已经彻底崩溃，分手后自己对前任的等待，一直以来承受的孤独寂寞，全部都没有结果，现在反倒是前任要结婚了，自己除了祝福，还能送上什么呢？只好让女主角忘掉自己这个笑话，而自己的未来，谁知道呢？

Why cant people be truthfully about their feelings? It takes 2 hands to clap, why must always be the case that one trying, one 吊起来卖？I tried that time, why cant you try again, for me and for yrself. I tot I stopped thinking but when I talk to friends around me, I find out that I'd actually hided it without realizing it =(

Its hard to be strong, when every piece of you is weak with all of the lies & tears

2011-08-13T01:28:00.002+08:00

" I'm sort of living a lie right now... There is just so much going on in my head that I wish I can tell any one but my stupid journal.. but I can't tell anybody the truth of my thoughts because I don't know what's going on in my mind..."

Bee said, she wanna speak to me last night at Bala however we cant therefore we arrange to meet up on Friday. She say why I emo.. I also donno why. Anyway, its good to know she cares.. she have been a good, caring, steady friend, thats why I said, Im lucky to have this batch of crazy BFFS..

FML

Just because I moved on doesnt mean I wont be here if you change your mind. And if you were to say: come with me, even now I might go

2011-08-05T23:18:00.000+08:00

"I actually wrote the below post for few weeks and Ive been thinking whether to post this up or not.. but still I did it today.. I hope this will be the very last post about K"

Few days ago, K SMS-ed me "Dinner tonight? Payback dinner.. Lolz" thus we decided to meet up 2 days later which is earlier today for dinner. Ofcos it's not just him and me lah..

GL, JY and MD were with us.. Seriously I'm pretty taken aback that he remember that he still owe me a meal. Ofcos I don deny the fact that occasionally when we had a chance to talk, I'll pester him that "eh u still owe me a meal" but it's really 除此预料 that he really does that! At first, I did pondered whether should I go as I'm afraid but thinking that since he made e first move in wanting to payback the dinner to me, that was more than enough.

I told bee abt it and she said its a scandalous date.. Wahaha.. But no lah, it's not, 我和他是不可能的。
I'm really happy to see him again, it's a kind of feelings I cant describe. 也许是还没有完全的放下他但我真的有很努力的在做，在学习。而且有人告诉我过 "never look back in the past, look forward and learn how to make ur life a better one... Things which aren't meant to be will never be"..

Somehow this phrase wake me up, 是我放弃了这一切所以我不可能会回到过去我也不应该活在过去。有人告诉我：假如你心里还有别人你也不能全心全意的去爱另一个人。我知道这样对我的男朋友很不公平但有些事不是说要忘就能忘，像电脑要测地清除就能清除了。我真的有去想，他到底有什么好,都已经分了四年两个月为何他还会在我心里。For this, I was also amazed by myself.. Haa! 也许是他的体贴，他的笑容，他那些无私的爱，他的一切一切吧, 所以才那么难忘记吧。每次和别人谈到他，我总是会觉得开心 but thereafter I'll feel like shit. 有时有些人会问我，你还没有放弃他吗？我的答复会是，不是每件事都能这么容易的。毕竟他真的给了我很多美好的回忆。我也不否认那时的我，是很任性，蛮不讲理，野蛮。而虽然我这么不好，他从没放弃过我，一直陪在我的身旁。我知道要彻底忘掉一个人最好的办法是，不和他有任何联络。我有想过我可以学别人一样，把前难友从fb delete away，少点和我们的common friends 接触可是我真的做不到。好笑right?　有时也是我自己皮痒啦，有空的时候会拿出他送我的卡片看，不知不觉也会掉下眼泪。明知道是不可能的还去想很stupid right? 在他的卡里，他说我曾经爱说：开心就好了咯 but then 我很久已经没有说了我也不知道我自己的感觉。他总是说他早就放弃了，but somehow in my heart 我觉得他没有，也许是我想太多了吧。也许我是在蹁自己。有空的时候我也会想想看我和他还有没有可能。如果那时真的有机会一起，我想他也许会是我的终身半吕吧哈哈，因为懂得珍惜，或者会怕再在一次的是失去 or maybe as per above title。我会后悔，有时我也会想如果那时他早点对我坦白，我也耐心的等他的回答回来，现在会是怎样。为什么要在他走之前的一星期才叫我等他！为何有话不早说，要是他早说的话，我不会去认识新的朋友。我真的很讨厌他！我真的也很想他。 I know there are 2 side of stories in life.. 如果不是这样，我也不会认识到我的男友而过着不错的生活。最好笑的是，我会想如果有一天我和男友要是散了，我会和他再在一起吗？当然我也自有了答案。也许就像他们所说的，我和他是欢喜冤家或者我们真差了缘分吧！无论如何我真得很高兴能再一次的和他一起吃饭，能见到他可是每当我看见他以后，虽然明知道我又会心痛了。有太多的话想说可是再也不能说！这种感觉真的好辛苦哦！！！但也只能放在心里，总之只要他过得好过得开心就够了。不得不放弃但放弃也许是一种开始吧?

I used to say "Giving up doesn’t always mean you are weak; sometimes it means you are strong enough to let go" but it seems like I nv accomplish any of these 2. 好没有用！

Overall, It'd been a great catching up session cum dinner with them.. Somehow it have been ages since I laugh so heartily.

One of the blessings of having old friends is that you can afford to be stupid with them

2011-08-03T18:54:00.002+08:00

Dear girls, thanks for being such a darling always, for being in part of my life, Im really lucky and happy to have you girls.. 八三妇女节快乐！muackz...

Living with your mistake is harder than you think

2011-08-03T00:33:00.005+08:00

Been watching 醉后决定爱上你, its quite a nice show and certain sentences that the actors said, i find it nice.. "如果心里存在者不甘心，就代表还有没到放弃的时候" and "给你最多快乐的就是你的真爱"

holding on to something that used to be there hoping it will come back yet knowingly it won't.

2011-07-28T03:42:00.000+08:00

We all have our own time machines. Some take us back, they're called memories. Some take us forward, they're called dreams

2011-07-08T06:39:00.001+08:00

Insomnia night again..
Stupid PC fail on me again, it stated "problems with your sound device", simply have no ideas wad it meant.. Duh!

Let me play n rot awhile more and I'll get my ass back into working society. Seriously I'm getting slightly bored with the lifestyle now. I prefer staying hm instead of heading out to drinks compared to past. Maybe it's bcos I haven been working thus no stress?? Nah, I doubt that's e case.. But I hate being alone at hm! No one to cook dinner for me.

Donno true or not but Dad said he might wanna go back to Brunei in a year or so. If he's going, maybe I could go back there with him too? Haa! But if I were to stay there permanently, I will get bored to death for sure! I'm wondering how people manage to get oversea jobs.. I feel like leaving but can I?

Happy Birthday 2011

2011-06-27T11:48:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to people close to my heart

Although time have changed, and we might not be seeing, contacting each other that often, you are still someone who are always close to my heart.

Celebrated Angela birthday on lasr Sat at St James. It was fun with so many babes present but I left early as powerhouse are too cramped for me and too many people at the club.

Its also Kevin's birthday. Liang did called me on Friday night to ask me go down but I rejected him as he only call me at 1plus am and I wasnt invited at first so no point of me going down la. Maybe bcos I also don wanna be caught in those awkward situation again but that Ah liang, very jialat de.. Say got woes wanna share with me, wanna fake me down.

I hope both of them enjoyed their bday celebration and may their life be filled of happiness and good luck!

No matter when and where, I always wish I could be there celebrating this kind of occasion with you two or all of friends but sometime circumstances don allows, sometime its just me who hold myself back =( I hope you are happy, I did what I opt to do and thats e least I can still do for you,...(,")(",)

Few years back at Mount Faber (it was also in the month of June), that was the first time i ever heard of this song, sang by someone together with some foolish actions and since then, I fell in love with it =)
#$%#&*(! I should not be thinking about the past. Sigh... But slowly and surely, I guess I will stop; I hope

a song can take you back instantly to a moment, or a place, or even a person. no matter what else has changed in you or the world, that one song stays

2011-06-25T17:52:00.003+08:00

If you still remembers,

But I doubt you do, I doubt people remember their promises.

I wanted and needed to talk to someone earlier as I think I need some advice. Yes, there's alot of people who I can speak to but I just want to speak to that someone. I belive that's the only person who can offer me the best and unbaised solution but I donno how to tell the person I need a listening ear and I don think that person will have time for me to pour my trouble too.. =(

Vex arhhh!! 我现在是过得挺幸福的但是我很想找回童话世界的"我们"。

In everyone's past there is a love they can't get over and a summer where it all began…

2011-06-22T02:56:00.002+08:00

Its the month of June.. Half year into 2011 already

MJ-ed with the guys last month during Vesak day. It's been so long since we last Mj together. Also, it were my first time to visited Tham new Hse.
Mj-ed with them again last Friday and I made a very classic comment.

Tham: Dice leh?
Me: 没有

And they reminded me that I was 北风北庄!
Okay lah, thou paiseh but managed to make the guys stunned and burst out in laughter :)

Coffee-ed with Ah liang on 23th May.
That guy win loh, I wasnt supposed to meet him but I think he was too bored thus he insisted I meet him by telling me he will reach my place within 20 mins and to ensure I will go coffee with him, he said: If you nv come down, its okay, I will just consider as putting him plane. So bad of him right? But overall, it was a great chit chatting session with him for a long cool 5 hours.

Sometimes I do wish to blog to share to pen down what's happening in my life but some time I just hold back myself from doing so..

I don like it when people talks about you, asking me qns about you and so many more. Im already trying my best in doing what I opt to do. Minimizing knowing, hearing, contacting, thinking..

''Sorry can we just be friends?'' is like saying ''The dog died but can we keep it"

2011-06-21T00:57:00.001+08:00

Nice one!

There's a little truth to every 'just kidding'

2011-05-01T01:12:00.000+08:00

" I’m scared because, I don’t want anyone else to have your heart. I don’t want anyone else you kiss, I don’t want anyone else to be in your arms, I don’t want you to love anyone else. I’m scared because i dont’ want anyone to take my place."

Happy to meet, happy to know, happy to hear!
The guys(ber and gang) might be kidding me but when they told me someone were happy, happy to see me, I was delighted yet I can only pretend that it doesn't matters to me. The guys are so -_-", kept saying Beng kept my photo in his wallet which I absolutely don blive it.
Yes, I had a short 2 1/2 hours gathering with the guys last night, ate 天天火锅 for dinner. Thankfully, things turned out well and there was no stranger present. 火锅 seems to be our fav dish, as most of the time we will arrange to meet up for steamboat. Lolz! Everyone were present aside from Daniel. There wasn't a round 2 as most of them have things on hand. I hope I'll be able to meet up with them again, soon! I really miss the days whereby we hang out together frequently! But glad that we still keep in contact and will make e effort to meet up =)

Another 20 hours, I'll be going for a vacation trip with my gfs! So excited about it =) Shop and relax!

Pay more attention to my favorite songs. Because the lyrics they sing, are words I’m afraid to say

2011-04-25T00:56:00.001+08:00

Gathering with the guys this Friday, can't wait to see them. They were my only group of guys friends that I still keep in contact with after Q. I'll try my best to avoid if I can cos 有时候不见反而更好！

I'm kinda getting bored of not working. Thinking of going back work soon but I've no ideas what should my next move be.
Thinking of changes too; thou I really dislike changes to be made. Not happy =(

One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart you can't speak

2011-04-23T15:54:00.000+08:00

Life is so fragile.. Too bad we cant turn back time..

I was the one who said things changed, but you were the one who showed me exactly how much they really did

2011-04-12T20:21:00.002+08:00

I bypass the route, recalled the time whereby I used to take bus 961. It were a long journey; 45 mins bus ride, taxing but I kinda miss it. Memories flooded back non-stop. I missed the time I walked over to Eat, walked over to buy apple strudel, had the best celebrations there. Things were so much simpler and happier back then. Things also started to change at that place. Though it consisted of both good and bad memories, I feel and believe there were more happy memories. I miss it muchie, wish to go back to the past but I cannot any more. Ive been trying hard not to think about the past, been trying to look forward but its real hard.

As we aged, things seem much complex, more worries, some regrets but more wisdom? lol!

I dreamt about you again, lil angel.. but only to find myself smiling yet aching.

You can't hurt someone unless you really mean something to them

2011-03-28T15:51:00.002+08:00

Now then I understand the above meaning.

Back from my HK trip and it was fun. Cooling weather! Not forgetting, Venetian hotel were fabulous!

＂错过就是错过了。最重要的是珍惜眼前人＂Quoted from Only You

Some things happened last week and I'm not happy at all. I'm not going to tell.
Things will change but not all. Still, I hate pretenders, I hate those copycats!

Time is all I need.

Never, ever, regret something that made you smile

2011-02-26T02:20:00.000+08:00

Backdated..
13 February 2011
I went buffet at star gallery with cousin thereafter went up their hotel room and i started Vomite, diaherra, fever n cold -_-" appetite wasn't good also, could only take in few mouth of food.

Recently, I pen in my thoughts on the other blog.

22 Feb 2011
Went for my first Pap smear testing and I vaccinated myself with Gardsil. I received my report and its good! =)

Soon I will be heading to Hk/Macau for a 6d5n holiday.. Cant wait to step into HK after 4 - 5 years period. Shopping spree..

You love the first person who touches your heart, and you never love anyone quite that way again

2011-02-10T20:14:00.001+08:00

Please recommend weight gaining method, I need to put on weight!
I'm only weighting at 45kg now which doesn't match my height at all..

Praying to 天公 tonight. As usual my house are filled with MANY offering stuffs.. It's gonna be real smoky in another 3hrs time

Don't say you love somebody and then change your mind. Love isn't like picking what movie you want to watch

2011-02-10T02:15:00.001+08:00

Change is never easy, you fight to hold on, you fight to let go…

2011-02-05T10:04:00.004+08:00

如果有一天我回到从前, 回到最原始的我你是否会觉得我不错? 如果有一天我离你遥远不能再和你相约, 你是否会发觉我已经说再见?

It was better than what I expected. I went up his place with Minde and Jiayu. Initially it was awkward but I'm glad that the awkward-ness in me, dissolve soon elsewise I reckon I would have left his place within an hr time.
I get to meet his family once again :) 尤其是他的妈妈，she have always been so nice, caring n concern towards me.. Even when I was about to leave his place, she intended to send me downstairs but I rejected kindly. 我真的很感动但我又觉得对不起她因为我以前不断的伤害她的儿子而当我们又有机会能从来，又..... It's my bad but if u never make things clear how will the person know what's your true intention? I don have supernatural power to be able to predict peoples' mindset.

每个故事都有个开始有个结局，而我这个故事的结局到底会是几时还是会有转弯呢？

Drop that never ending topic..
CNY was fun as I get to meetup with friends whom I haven saw for long time. It was fun, a month of happiness fills :)

2011-02-04T23:24:00.000+08:00

我不是不喜欢人家赌博，要赌可以但也得知道自己的 limits 也不要疯狂的赌到不知白天或黑夜

2011-02-03T07:26:00.003+08:00

新年快乐 2011!

I feel so uncomfy by not going to Tham's place last night. Somehow for the past 5 or 6 years (除夕夜), we will be at his place to play blackjack without fail. This year, I given it a miss. Isit really time for changes?

Invitation received to Kev's place (Cny gathering cum house warming) but I'm wondering should I go or not? It's gonna be weird to go up his place and he even said that bf are welcome too! It's already gonna be real weird, awkward if I were to go up his place, not to mention bringing bf to his place, moreover with his parents around. I felt the gao wei-ness before when others was present in the usual group gathering so I do hope he won't have a chance to experience what I felt before. Neither here nor there. Duh!
Nevertheless I'm shocked and surprised with the invitation..

My first rolex

2011-01-28T17:50:00.002+08:00

Ron gave me a surprise by booking a night at Festive hotel and something more extravagant he bought me a gift which I never expected to receive it.. A Rolex watch!

I was taken aback when I received that watch! It's such an expensive gift.. If I were to post up the pictures on FB, I'm sure there will be lotsa talks going around.. I simply hate those ppl (acquaintance) who bitch bad stuffs or should I say "sour grapes"!
Anyway i cant be bothered lah! Just wanna let my friends share the joys Ive. I do like that gift muchie but its a hefty gift to be receive when I'm only his gf..

Cny are approaching in few days time and I wonder how will it turn out to be like. Alot of things have changed, happened and I guess somehow it will be different from the past.

Boredom post

2011-01-25T06:03:00.008+08:00

It usually happens few times in a year when I start emo-ing to myself, thinking about nonsense stuffs, fighting hard to overcome that feelings which I hated the most.

I came to know a new friend, J. Slightly older than me, happy go lucky guy, doing his master now, driving a porsche n own his own property development firm BUT this is not the main topic that I wanna blog about.. He have a Master in Feng Shui n he know palm reading!
As usual, my curiosity strikes and i started asking him Qns. He said:
Im a big spender, will be a super doting mum in future, very intelligent lady (some things I know but at times i just won't say), heaven blessed person (always there will be people helping me), career life will be smooth sailing, I'll have 2 kids in future, Ron is my 2 1/2 serious bf. He also said I'm a very stubborn and emotional person, which most of the times, it's my emotion that kills me (opportunity lose). He even said that a guy might come along into my relationship in the future but he did say it's preventable. I know all these might sound ironic but he said out one of my secret which makes me pretty "impressed"!

U won't know what is missing till it's gone.. So fight hard for it..

Anyway I also donno why I'm blogging about this. Perhaps just wanna talk about something to myself.
Eventually i didnt went to Zoo with them, i also didnt went down titanium to look for them. She asked me to go but I opt not to n I really didn't expect they will go titanium! Things really happens for a reason. I'm glad I've a very valid reason for not wanting to go titanium.

Went out with Liang for a drink earlier

I'm sick again!
Pretty pack this week, meeting michie, Q gals, BFFs this week!

Quotes

2011-01-18T05:09:00.002+08:00

The saddest thing in life is that sometimes you meet someone who mean alot to you, only to find out in the end that it was never meant to be and you have to let go yet u can't get through or let go.

Close together, or far apart, u will always be here in my heart

I hate looking at the stars because it makes me think of wad u told me, the stars shining brightly

Happy to know that you are happy..

Fucking tulan today.. I was at titanium earlier on and a stupid Thai gal, for no reason threw a glass towards me. Luckily it didn't hit me but my blood boiled immediately and I went up to give her one tight slap on the face thou there were ppl blocking. Nbcb, I haven been so pist for ages! The bouncer came in, drag that cb woman out. Thereafter came into the room to apologies and said they will send her back to her country by tml! So tulan! I still feel that I should have beaten her more and harder but they said, at least I have slapped her and it was a very big and hard slap. Fuck up!

The boss (kapo) and ah lam promised that I'll nv see her there again..

2011-01-14T15:40:00.002+08:00

My heart are telling me to join them for the Zoo outing but my brain tells me, No..
Shld I go with e logical or illogical me?

Grandparents have shifted up to stay with ah boon and in order to take care of Jayden since last Monday. I'm considered as staying alone in my own house. Ofcos they will still come back occassionally.

小天使，我想你

2011-01-01T23:28:00.006+08:00

想看你的看的世界,想在你梦的画面
只要靠在一起就能感觉甜蜜想回到过去试著让故事继续
至少不再让你离我而去分散时间的注意
这次会抱得更紧这样挽留不知还来不来得及想回到过去

2009年的12月31号，我和那般朋友玩得很开心也没想要早走。去年的今天，我在一天内感受了两种心情。非常的高兴和一点的失望。偶然会回想那天的感觉。
2010年的12月31号，我又和同样的这一般朋友在一起倒数。但是今天的我想越早走越好但我不否认我也玩得挺开心的。幸好我的好朋友当天也有在她家庆祝所以我也有一个很好的理由能够早离开。很高兴能和我那些bitchy BFFs 一起倒数2011年的到来！

没想到一年能有这么大的改变，不同的感觉。有时后，看不到，听不到，反而会对自己更好。真的怕了，累了，放弃了

2010-12-30T13:43:00.010+08:00

Happiness always looks small while you hold it in your hands, but let it go, and you learn at once how big and precious it is. ~Maxim Gorky

Plenty of people miss their share of happiness, not because they never found it, but because they didn't stop to enjoy it. ~William Feather

Year 2010 is coming to an end! So far, I still couldn't really make up my mind whether have it been a great or bad year for me. Alot of changes have been made this year and I'm still trying to adapt to it.

Things I did for this year, 2010
1- Enjoyed the life of single hood

I do enjoy the life of being single. I could meet up with all my friends, stayed up late at their places, alot more things you could do etc. And when you are single, you could spend alot of your time thinking...

Life is so contradicting; when you don have that things, you hope you could get it but when you get it, you don treasure it!

2- Travelled to Taiwan, Bali and BKK (2 times)

Thats' my favourite past time! Travel around countries, taking a short break from SG and Im gonna start planning again on places that I wanna go next year :D

3- Pickup online casino games from Mr Liang

Thinking back, it was a wrong move to have gotten that account but somehow it have helped me to pass my time when Im bored. I lost count on the monies which I have lost. LOL. Thanks god, I managed to quit it recently

4- Change of job from being in sales line (K.A Building) to a Secretary (Ella Chong) to a unemployed person

Its really a drastic move. From being a sales person, I "own" a car to being car-less and gotta be struck in office for a long 8 hours straight till now, being a unemployed person. Im thankful for the break Im having now but Im also thinking of getting back a job soon.. See how lah!

5- Witnessed my friends broke up and gotten attached

I do not like what I heard when I came to know about my friends broke up. Heartbreaking news. They were the perfect couples that I think good of! 人算不如天算... I sincerely hope all of them are happy with their current life now! May all bad things be shun away from them.

Thanks god there are also happy events that happened in this year

Jessie and Ong gotten marry, Xin gotten attached with Rufus, Allan and his wife got marry etc..

6- When one door closed, another open

I do not regret things I did or said in the earlier part of this year. I really meant it and wants to do it but a pity I didnt get to do it. What would life be if we had no courage to attempt anything? But in life, certain things arent just meant to be yours, so live with it man! Learning to forget, put off and move on.

Tml there will be gathering with my pals. Somehow Im pretty anxious to have a gathering with them but a part of me, doesnt seems that excited to go. Idiotic feelings Im having! Duh!!

Im totally in love with this song

Its a old yet new lyrics song.. I never used to listen to Aaron Kwok's song until more than 1/2 decade ago, somebody sang the older version and another song to me. Somehow or rather, that few songs have become my fav songs all these while. Those songs never fail to make me feel at ease and reminisce about the past.

2010-12-26T18:26:00.000+08:00

I dreamt about you last night :) but putting off: moving on...

2010-11-23T04:22:00.003+08:00

我又睡不了！每晚都要等到凌晨 4-5am 才能睡 -_-"

19／11 checked into Hotel Michael. 我本身觉得hard rock cafe hotel 会比较舒服和漂亮。从现在到明年一或二月，我想我不会踏进RWS 了。

前几天我去参加我的堂姐的生日派对。在那我有看见了我那般朋友，说起来我是挺高兴能在次与他们一起喝酒聊天，一起玩但是当我看见有个不属于我这般朋友的人就让我觉得有点扫兴。不是我小气但我觉得她们说的没错，她很 sluty and keep rubbing shoulder with guys. 连我不懂头也不懂尾的表妹都觉得她很做作。真不知道那里有人这么厚脸皮硬问人家今天去哪玩。

Anyway, 也没对我有太大的印象。主要的是，我们这几个堂表姐妹都玩得挺高兴。幸好那晚我没喝的太醉，没太晚回家也没乱说话。那晚应该是我最后一次回和他们这么大般朋友的聚会。有他就以该没有我吧？但也是幸运啦，这般朋友没真的放弃我。

朋友们认为我休息了挺久了但我其是才休息少过2个月！

有时说的会比做的容易。有些事不是要忘记就能忘记，要逃避就能逃避；毕竟它是你的回忆也许也是因为它已经深深的engrave 在你的心里。只能希望时间能慢慢的冲淡一切。是你的就是你的，人家要这么破坏都不可能。

2010-11-18T00:13:00.004+08:00

Hate to be sick! Down with a very bad flu.. =(

Gotten my new camera, S95. Pretty happy with the photos taken.

I'm Gg to Hotel Michael in two day times and I've privatize / close down the unspoken words.. :(

2010-11-11T06:08:00.002+08:00

Cant imagine that I lost close to 4 kgs since I stopped work! I wanna burn off my beer belly but I don wanna be too boney..

Maggie (Used to be from KA) have set up her own company and she have the intention to ask me back to help her temporary in her new office but I doubt I'm willing as I no longer owns transport and it's hard to do sales without a car.

For the whole of last week, I have spent about 6 days Mj-ing! Ron know I missed Mj and prefer Mj than going out for drinks thus he get a brand new Mj table, titles and chairs to satisfy my desire.

Although i do feel bored at times as I'm jobless now but I do enjoy it alot. I haven took break for this long since I started working in 2003.

I hope to meet up with BFFs and also my 304 gals friends next week =)
And oppz, I still owes bee her lazensa card

2010-11-02T17:27:00.002+08:00

Although Ive alot of different MJ kakis but it still feels great playing with my usual friends from 304A.

Thank you, Mr Camera for your companionship for the past 4 - 5 years.. You have been a great companion, allowing me to capture the beautiful moments all these time.. I now pronouce you as 1/2 dead.. Wahhaha! There are cracklines on the LCD.

I don think I will dunp you away cos you are my 1st. But its time to move on and get a new camera. Like my previous post, good things fall apart so that better things can fall together.. Expo will be holding some IT fairs this weekend and I guess I will be going down to take a look and also to do my hair..

2010-11-02T04:33:00.003+08:00

Haven been blogging for ages and when I wish to start blogging, Ive no ideas where should I begin..

Things happened for a reason...

Today marks the 1st month when I stopped working completely. Im officially jobless. Haa!
My daily slp hours have changed. I slept during the day, awake by night. I miss gathering with friends and MJ-ing although nowadays Im always out. Haa..

I also donno wad else to blog but hopefully this will be the start of my blogging life again...

2010-11-02T04:28:00.000+08:00

2010-10-14T11:12:00.002+08:00

" The feelings when you once fought so hard to forget a long long time ago suddenly grips u by the mind and refuse to let go... "

5 mths of absence

2010-09-02T22:10:00.005+08:00

Blog have been left to rot for close to 5 mths!
Never had I tot I would be able to stop blogging for such a long period..

Well... But at least Im finally back to this rusty diary of mine. Had been busy all these while, busy re-shuffling my life..!

Soon, I will be back to pen down things that had happened during this past few months..

Je t'aime plus qu'hier et moins que demain stands for I love you more than yesterday but less than tomorrow

2010-04-19T11:01:00.011+08:00

A lot of things to be updated..

I saw something today and it simply took my breath away. I don wanna know anymore things anymore. Im upset. 心是痛的！

Finally...
My last day will be on 30th April 2010. Mr Soh asked me to reconsider and counter offer me with a very good deal: A car without paying for any installments, road tax or insurance. Really feel so appreciative to him for valuing me so much but once again I rejected him.

I changed my number!
Paying a fee for it but I changed my number. They gave me 2 numbers to choose from.. One is at 9168 1686. This number is not bad as in the 1st 3 digits is my DOB whereby the 4 digits behind is my birth date and year. But I chosen another nicer number =)

New job
Im starting my new job on 3rd May 2010A fresh start for me. Im so looking forward in meeting new colleagues / friends!

Car-less
Im wondering whether I will be able to adapt to life without a car as I know Im too dependent to it BUT I believe I can overcome it. Just a matter of time involved.

Family wake
Great grandmother passed away. She left the family at the age of 91. The 1st time Im attending a family wake. Although I wasnt very close to her but from wad I can recalled, she used to dote on me a lot. I couldnt describe the kind of feelings I experienced when I saw her coffin was being pushed into the retort :(

Love life...
Time flies.. Ive been single for a long long 4 – 5 mths! Its record-breaking for me =) During this period of time, I met a couple of new ppl.
Like this siao ding dong guy who keeps telling me to step into a rs with him and said that If I become his gf, he will buy me all the luxury items I want.. I was super angry and fcuk him..
But I also met some great person. He was as nice as thoughtful as sensitive as caring as patience as sweet and have a lot of great merits like him. Little things he had done that touches my heart slightly, not something monetary can buy. He brewed the chrysanthemum tea and 珊瑚藻 for me, insisted on picking me up regards of wad time I will be done for fear that I will be too tired to drive after attending the wake ( I stay at KT, he stay at TPY. He came to pick me up at my plc, send me to TPY for the wake and pick me up again at midnight to send me hm), when he take note of my 小动作 just like him but I think I have changed. No longer that gal who will get into a rs easily. Maybe bcos I just get to know him, maybe bcos of our status, maybe bcos I find it no point rushing, maybe bcos Im still waiting for a ans.

TWSS Classmate
It was supposed to be a monthly event but we seem to be meeting up weekly. Haa!Althou most of the time we were out drinking but able to catch up with old school mates, reminiscing about the good old times we had, witnessing the progression that each of us have make is more than enough. Im even happier cos meeting out with them on weekend for drink = I wont have to spend my Fri & Sat night MJ-ing (even thou I really enjoys MJ) moreover I still can MJ on Sun. At least my time are more well-spent now.

BFF
Planning in progress for an overseas trip for our 八三妇女节!

Studies
June will be the time when I know whether SIM accept my enrollment. I hope it will be a good news. If not, PSB or SMA will be my next option.

Trust
Donno why but I cant seems to find full trust in people anymore anywhere. The older I get, the more things I seen, the more things I heard, the lesser trust / faith Ive in ppl..

Tyre puncture experience
Was struck at BKE for 2 hours with Ah Hai & Ah Du after coming out from JB.We went in, in 2 separate car. He tried to chase me but failed to see that the drainage grill have been protruding out thus …. Wahahaha! We tried to fix the tyre ourself but we failed as he do not have spare tyre and only have silicon for tyre. Eventually tow truck came.

K-Box
Went KTV with Ms Angela, Ah hai and him.. Kbox are currently having promo, $8 Nett for one drinks and snack.. So shiok!

Im starting to feel that things are slowly picking up for me.. Ive been putting on weight.. I seriously need to control my food intake and I need a diet.
Im a perfectionist but Im not and wont be a perfect woman.. Simplicity Is the Key to Happiness..
我在学习对自己好一点，学习活得更开心，学习忘记过去。。。

2010-03-29T15:59:00.002+08:00

I don wanna be 欢喜冤家..

I had this nickname, Siao Cha Bor, called from Liang and Minde.. But now Kelvin also started to called me siao bo.. I wonder do I really appear like a crazy woman to them.. Haa!!

Submitted my resignation today but Mr Soh kept asking me to take back my letter, he said he will speak to me again tomorrow but my mind have been made up. I made this decision myself and Im not going to regret it.

I nv like to be wishy washy.
I hope and i belive i will be happier with this new arrangement =)

2010-03-28T21:56:00.005+08:00

- Its so hard not to think about it, its so hard to forget...

- 回不去從前到不了以後

- Time to move on... Time for new changes...

- 我要我的童话。无论未来的日子里会有多艰难，我都想要和你在一起。

- Its take a lot of courage to make the 1st move yet a single "NO" will destroy everything..

- 不想再玩抓迷藏了！这一阵子是我一厢情愿吗？如果不是的话，如果你还爱我就请你告诉我！不要等到我真的离去时，你才来后悔。我愿等你但总有个限期的嘛。

I guess I watch too many TW drama recently... Haa..
But TW drama are full of fairytales that I like =)

My unspeakable words

2010-03-18T00:41:00.004+08:00

Someone called me today.. When I realise who was the caller, I stumbled... We didnt talk much, I guess the caller were stunned by my idiotic reply.. But still Im happy to receive that call..

I wanted to cut my hair short but she say don.. She say only when I don hesitate and go down personally to tell her I want cut my hair short den she will cut short for me therefore I reperm my hair again..

Horoscope, zodiac and even Guan Yin Temple "said" the same things to me.. Be it for my career or love life.. Cannot rush or force my way out.. Be patience.. Wahaha...

Something funny happened today when I called to book my appointment..
Me: Is there any slot available for tml? I wanna make an appointment
Her: Can I have yr name pls?
Me: Stephanie, S.t.e.p.h.a.n.i.e (Spelling out e alphabet to her)
She: Can you please let me know the last alphabet again?
Me: "E" for elephant
She: Okay, Ms ELEPHANT, can I check with you what time do you wanna fix yr appt at?
Me: (?_?) HUH?!
She: ELEPHANT, Ive slot at 3pm and 5pm. Which do you prefer..

I couldnt help but burst out laughing non-stop!!! =)

2010-03-11T00:18:00.002+08:00

Just came back from Ratchada. I was told that "ChinaDolls" came to sg for performance but who knows he fake me.. They are "ChinaDolls" but from Thai.. -_-" Super lame lor..

Couldnt understand guys!
Going out with them doesnt imply that Ive a likings for them ley.. Doesnt platonic friendship exists now?

In the current society, I seldom see people using handkerchief but my new colleague, Melvin, he does! The rest of my colleagues including myself think and feel that he is such a cutie pie and he is those 没有被污染过的男孩. We named him as "Cute Cute" / "Ah hai"..
Yesterday he acc me to car viewing but after speaking to those car dealers, I couldnt believe that I still have to fork out 500+ close to 600 for a 2nd hand car due to the high interest rate now!

Sigh.. By end of April, I gotta return Jiayu her car therefore either I make up my mind to buy a car now or I change my job... Gotta start sending resume again.. -_-"

My cute bff, bee, sent me a sms during today evening time stating "Don gamble ya"
Isnt that cute of her? Love them muchie..
This coming Sun will be the 1st time Im gg in JB with her and Kelly =)

Made an appt with her and Im going to do add some chemicals to my hair on next wed.. Wahhaha.. Im gonna change, change, change!!!

迷守迷守。。。

2010-03-02T23:57:00.007+08:00

My little Jayden

Cute ar.. He nv fails to make my day =)

My long distance friend!

I managed to meet up with him, Alvin before he leave for Aussie again. Had a nonsensical yet enjoyable chat with him. Am happy to know that he is doing well in his life, love and career =) Thou at times I still wonder how does he managed to make it as a Lawyer with his "excellent" pronunciation..
Wishing him all the best and hope to see him again in Dec...

I lost monies again :(
Definitely not MJ but I gotta stop gambling and save up for rainy days..

Golf lessons starting this Friday @ OCC and Im gg to Taiwan in another 28 days.. =)
Gotta learn to fully utilise my days.. I tot of going to learn languages but Jean asked me to wait till we finished learning golf den request co. to sponsor us again.. Hmm.. If not what about taking dance lesson again? (?_?)

我不想在原地踏步。想要一个更充实的生活！

2010-02-28T06:08:00.002+08:00

Company have make arrangement for us to learn golfing.. Lesson will stay on next Fri but I was recommended by Maggie for a new job in an advertisting firm. The benefits are there but if I go, I got to forfeit the payment for taiwan which I paid earlier for Ah du. Friends said that it seems so easy for me to get a job but not all are towards my likings. Sighz.. The advertising firm wants me to give them an answer by Mon.. So should I stay or go? They say go but will it be good for me? Changes changes changes...! @_@

Oh ya, he is back for vacation =)
But some of my friends are sailing off soon. Im gonna miss them

2010-02-26T16:18:00.003+08:00

To my nameless friends (You know who you are): It have been a LONG LONG time since we had a drink together. Its great to see and catch up with u guys again last night.

=) I still managed to drive myself home but I took a longer route for fear of road block. Wahahaha…

2010-02-22T12:14:00.001+08:00

Wanted to delete my friendster a/c but I cant seems to find that "delete account" button and it took me an hr plus to remove all the tagged photos on FB.

2010-02-21T06:06:00.002+08:00

During the 1st few days of CNY till yesterday, I lost close to SGD 1.2K due to gambling...
Be it cards game, MJ or at RWS.. I was super duper down on my luck

But yesterday lady luck was smiling to me AGAIN =)
Liang opened a online a/c for me and we shared the game. Won $480 each.
We finally found Ong and Jessie to join us for MJ session and and I won another $470..
After MJ, we went to RWS again and I won an additional of $200 after deducting my levy fee..
Thanks god, my losses was cut down by 90% imm since yesterday..

Recently Ive been feeling pretty emo. Looking back, I did a numerous foolish thingy which I never thought I will do it. But then, I do it happily and willingly. Whatever lah! 过去就过去了啦，我也不想再去想它了！
Ive decided to put aside all other matters except restructuring my life! And enjoy being myself again.. Even thou some of the matters might be important to me as well but I figure out; if I cant even handle / lead my own life well, how can I still handle others?
Anyway, I have already made some effort to go down to certain sch and next week Im going to enquire on 2 more schools before I commit..

Next big thing in mind is to focus on saving the necessary monies and also whether should I get a CAR...

Nobody can go back and start a new beginning, but anyone can start today and make a new ending.

2010-02-16T13:11:00.003+08:00

I cant slp well, I woke up at 10+am even though I only slept at 7+am this morning..
Thus I started a new blog..

And yes, I went RWS last night.

2010-02-14T06:07:00.007+08:00

Was kind of disappointed when I came to know of something today.
Knowing of this thingy have changed my mindset / feelings totally.
Somebody said that it might be a misinterpretation but I think elsewise cos I also believe in myself and my 6th sense.
Felt that I have been relatively naive but its ok because there are no mistakes in life, only lessons learnt.

Althou I feel very very _____ but life still goes on and its gonna be Better In Time! =)

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY 2010

- Never regret anything because at some point you wanted it. Never regret something that once made you smile =)
- Chances are so hard to come by and the second one is impossible to find.
- Good-bye is only truly painful if you know you'll never say hello again.
- There is an end to things no matter how much we want to hold onto them.

2010-01-28T11:09:00.005+08:00

Countdown... 8 more days to BKK and 63 more days to TaiPei =)
Cant wait to get out of SG...

There are three different me's, the person you think I am, the person I think I am, and the person I really am
Never gonna change who I am all along because I am the one and only me!
I am who I am. I am my own heaven and hell!
Judge me all you want, but keep the verdict to yourself

2010-01-25T22:40:00.001+08:00

Ah ma is complaining on the timing I return home after hearing from Dad that yesterday during midnight there was a robbery case opp my home.
The victim was a lady yet she kanna rob n was being punch by that robber 4 times. Kaoz!

After staying at this area for more than 2 decade, this is the 1st time I heard of this kind of incident.

2010-01-24T21:05:00.004+08:00

I rejected the job offer from Samnia.

I made a decision recently thou ......
Nevertheless, I hope I make e right choice and once a decision is make, don ever look back =)

I strike 4D yesterday. 1701 !!!

Every few months, my wire will auto be connected wrongly and I think now is the season. Haa.. Suddenly doesnt feel like doing anything at all.. Doesnt feel like thinking of anything..

Im so keen on that belt but it is wastage of monies if I buy that.. arhh... Choices Choices...

Monday BLUEZ !!! Boo!

2010-01-13T14:05:00.003+08:00

I nv like decision making! Sigh, if only there is machine that can really foresee the future and give me a good advice on what is the step that I should take..!

I went Atlantis on Tuesday with them. It was our 1st time there and my dear friend got totally wasted. I kinda like that plc as the bouncer there are fun, its spacious and most importantly it’s the companion that counts the most.

Sneak preview for Leon’s Kor movie “Jump” was not bad. I saw quite a few Sporean celebrities there to support Leon and I was pretty amaze that he actually have quite a number of fans in SG.

Ytd it was a last min decision to go out with Ah Du. That gal, I can nv trust her words to go hm on the timing that she set. In the end, we left the plc at 330am. Holy shit and Im wking today but luckily she managed to call me numerous of time to wake me up.
They are planning to go there again this Sat but I don wanna go unless I really have no activities. Boo!

Giving up is easy; to persist on is the hardest thing

2010-01-12T09:17:00.002+08:00

It feels good to be compliment early in the morning especially by a ang mo :)
A sms I received early in the morning by my client: Hey, Martin thinks that you are a real babe

Dad came into my room again ytd, asking have I make up my mind.. I told him, wait till after CNY den we shall decide/discuss again.
Seriously I donno what I want. Getting a car definitely essential to me and I can jolly well afford it now but if I were to step back into a administrative line, I wouldnt need a car and it will become a burden to me. And what if i were to continue studying? Everything seems to be in a ??? mode right now... I couldnt seems to make up my mind..

Anyway, I finally thought of a new yr resolution for myself this year.
I plan to get a BIG bday gift for myself this year! So from now till Sept, I shall start to save save SAVE! =)

2010-01-08T00:54:00.005+08:00

Im so angry lor. NBCB...

Im angry not bcos I still love you or never have I harbour a thought to be with you again.
Like wad Alex say maybe I misinterpreted, maybe its my wrongful thinking but fcuk u. Ppl don send msg for no reasons. Im not really that stupid/naive.
I hope that you didnt but don ever let me know that when we were together that time, u did something behind my back. I definitely will curse you badly.

Afterall, we have been together once and I still want to preserve those nice memories of us but FCUK off, don ever come into my life again. Don make me hate/loathe you.
I still wish you all e best and success BUT how you are going to lead your life, I simply cant be bothered! Anyway, Im living my life so much better without you =)

2010-01-06T16:36:00.006+08:00

I shall rest, play, slack my life all the way till the 1st quater of 2010. After which I will do some restructuring works to my life. Be it to further studies, pick up a sports etc.

Tat day, i told someone about wad i have been thinking, feeling all along but sigh.. I donno whether have i make things better or worse and I think they cant be bother or care ley :(
Anyway wad have said cannot be unsaid. I did my part in conveying the msg. Let just wait and see. Don wanna think so much.

I overheard that my company will be close for a week during CNY which means I will be off from 13 Feb - 21st Feb! Love it!

Just went to check out the prices for air tix during this period but it super ex.
Or should I jio ppl go Genting again in Feb? But I don think anybody will be as free as me moreover to acc me -_-" If only somebody can acc me..

Watching 海派甜心... Its nice to watch also. It seems like when you love somebody, you will forgive all his/her past mistake and continue loving them.

I hate to be sick and I miss eating rochor beancurd...

2010-01-02T08:52:00.005+08:00

2nd Jan 2010, Im here in office working.. Damn it. Feeling so sleepy and drunk. And so shitty lor, everybody in the firm ask why 眼睛没有神. Imagine since Thursday, I slept for so short hours.. Haa. How to have 神?

It was another SOP night...
We MJ till about 3am.. And I won $250 =) Thanks to myself and Minde for getting few time 6 tais.

After MJ, we have another round of drinking game but it wasnt as bad as the day before even thou I feel we drink so much more compare to last night. Maybe bcos on NY eve, we mixed alot of different alcohol. This time round, nobody vomited but i guess all were high.

Thanks to Minde for fetching me to office and probably sending me back to Liang hm again later as they don allow me to drive myself. Luckily Minde has set his mind on Jiayu. Elsewise I guess they definitely will think that we have something going under ground cos we were so close. They said after my work, we go walk walk. Guess tonight its gonna be SOP again... lol

Co. trip have been fixed on 1st - 4th Apr. I donno whether should I go for the co. trip or should I go for the praying session.. Oh dear, please show me a way =)

2010-01-01T20:00:00.006+08:00

Happy New Year 2010

I was at Liang hse last night for my NY countdown. I was drunk and vomited.. Haa..
It was fun, it was nice.. Slept over at Liang plc as I cant drive back.

But it wasnt a very pleasant day today.

Since today is the beginning and brand new start of a year, I hereby announce that I am SINGLE. WJ and I have gone our separated way since early Dec'09. Things haven been going smoothly for us, we have been dragging on and I also find that its time to face myself, face the reality.. It was a peaceful breakup.

Thats all about me.. I heading to Liang home again..

2009-12-31T00:16:00.007+08:00

Genting trip was great...
I won monies, sufficient to cover for my expenses there..
Moreover we ate good food while there... My very 1st time eating Ah Yat and the birdnest eggtart was so much more delicious compared to SG de. One of the great things that happened there was, I introduce Jiayu to Minde =)

不管是被爱或爱人都是幸福的！
What matters most in life is happiness and being honest to ownself...
I am and I am loving my life now...

Brandon said this to me: Don think of salvaging. Think of a brand new start.
I think wad he said make sense. He is a great adviser.

Company are planning a trip to Taiwan in Apr'10 =)
I hope by then I will still be inside the firm.. Free trip ley, who doesnt want... Haa!
And since I failed to go for a beach beach getaway this yr, I shall make my plan work in next year June. Moreover the air tix is so dirt cheap now.. Air fare to Langkawi will cost less than 100 and to Phuket will cost probably at 180..

And I decided to go car-viewing this weekend.. =) But den I would prefer a brand new car rather than 2nd hand.. See how it goes lah!

2009-12-23T12:05:00.003+08:00

I just came to realize that most of you guys (My friends) are pretty smart. Anyway, thanks pals for all the concern shown.

Don worry, im feeling alright. Life still goes on, Im getting used to it and I think im living my life better than ever. There are still so many things which I wanna achieve in year 2010.
Im planning for a career switch, Im planning to take up part time degree, Im also planning whether I should buy a car of my own! Lastly Im looking forward to my BKK trip in FEB.

Donno why, donno isit coincident or wad but most of my fren who happens to know wad have happened, they mentioned the same things about my past but I think its impossible lah.
It have already been so long, so many donkey years ago. The thing have changed and it will nv be back the same. 不是每一个东西我要，我都可以得到。 Fate plays a part in it too.
Someone said to me, if you can forget den let go, if you cant forget then grab hold but ofcos u must take the initiative to change it.
Given e current situtation, Im already contented with it. I wont make the initiative bcos I already did it before and things don turn out good. And i think Ive no faith anymore. Maybe its time to close doors le..

Anyway, I will be going to Genting this weekend. And even thou they said 带我出门不方便 -_-
but they are still bringing me along however as of now, we still did not manage to book any hotel room.
Thinking back, I haven stepped into that place for a long 3 - 4 years.

I am finally " Sexy.Intelligent.Naughty.Girlie.Lovely.Elegant " =)

Cool down period thoughts

2009-12-18T00:23:00.002+08:00

Super appreciate the things my family have been doing for me.

Jiayu and Ah du have been going out with me often althou most of the time we ended up drinking but it was still fun being by their side.

Ah Yi have also been trying to date me out as she is on leave till next year. This is even the 1st time whereby she msg me "We all love u ok" (12 Dec'09)

Daddy, Ah Ma and Ah Gong haven been nagging at me lately. Daddy even said that he strongly believe in me and Im not a Sappan boat in his eyes. Im a Tanker, vessle. But i forgotten to tell him, I cant as I donno how to swim..
That day, I was still jokingly telling Ah Ma, instead of Ah Yi, Im her "Youngest Daughter" and she said Ya lor.

I really love and appreciate the things and Im thanksful for having them by my side. I promise to be better, more caring, more loving towards them. I really came to realise that family members are the only people who will stay by our side no matters right or wrong. I HEARTS them MUCHIE.

PS: I removed my extention. Learning to get use to BARE nails. Oh gosh, I dread it.. Haa

2009-12-13T23:40:00.001+08:00

I think I need a shoulder, I need a hug badly..

2009-12-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

nothing is impossible in this world. I sure can do it, i can.. Way to go.. Cherrio stephanie

2009-12-11T14:47:00.000+08:00

加油陈淑盈！！！加油加油加油 =）

2009-12-01T11:35:00.009+08:00

有些事情不是说要忘记就能忘的。就像我一直以来都念念不忘着她们而她们终于找到我了！

Those were the days, those were the time when every things was simple, worry-free.
I hope I can meet up with them ASAP =)

In another 2 weeks time, Jayden is turning one soon..
We (the cousins) are sharing a bday cake for him and I have gotten him a Chelsea jersey with his name imprinted on it but I guess he can only wear it when he is 2 - 3 years old.

Ah du will also be celebrating her bday on e same Sat at DragonFly.
Cut it short, Im so looking forward to festival season celebrations.

A brand new year is reaching soon therefore TaDah...
A new phone, a new lanyard

Maybe a new number, a new job, a new life, a new me =)

2009-11-30T00:30:00.005+08:00

28th Nov 2009
Went for porridge dinner at Oasis with Becky n gang. It was Liangs' treat. SOP after dinner, we went to 304A for some Mj-ing session and I did my 1st ever 大四喜 last night at Becky place.. Plus 是我自摸的哦！
So happy as I didnt expected I will game that round. MK said I was simply lucky.

Today Becky, Liang, Wayne, MK and I went to Parkway for some chit chatting session.
Some photos taken for the day.

Wayne wearing my oversized specs

Isnt he cute? I bet when he grows up, he will definitely be a very charming guy. The cutie pie, he took my glasses and wore it for at least 1 hour while we shopped around at Parkway Parade =)

Not forgetting to introduce, Becky eldest son, Mr Liang

Carrying a Ben10 bag walking around.

It can be quite hilarious to see a grown up man carrying such a kiddy bag but seeing this little action of his or others daddy; can touches my heart. By the willingness to do so, I can sense that he love both mother and son alot elsewise he wont carry the bag for them right?

PS: Looking forward to the xmas celebration with them. Liang said can arrange for Pot Luck

2009-11-21T11:09:00.003+08:00

我从台湾回来了。
台北是一个很好的谷物天地。

I donno but after reading CLEO, I think im experiencing QLC... Haa!

- 在这世界上，是没有“因该“这个事情的。
- Sometime things might not be as simple as wad it seems..
- 有些机会只有一次，失去了就不会再来
- In this world, is there anything called "命中注定去爱一个人呢?"
- 心灵相通有可能吗？
- Past experiences do not represent me. Rather, they represent things I have experienced; they do not make me into a better or worse person

Finally at the age of 23, I did something which I have always wanted to do since the age of 18. Tadah!!! My makeover photos. Taken in Taiwan =)

All this photos are taken using my camera but the effects are still nice rgt !!! =)
My camera is failing me soon.. I wanna get a new camera but I don bear to dump my old. Haiz...

2009-11-02T02:22:00.000+08:00

It have been a long time since I haven't been experiencing this kind of feelings. I had never like or I should say I hate that kind of feelings a lot.

The kind of feelings that will make me turn and toss on the bed, keeping me fully awake. The sense of fear, worry, unhappiness all tends to set in at the same time.
I tends to think more when I cant get to slp.. About my work and my life, what do I want, am i happy, how am i going to lead or carry on with my life..

Humans are lidat.. There will always be a point of time when you will feel down/lost. There will always be a point of time when you reminisce about things that had happened or might happen. 我想我也已经看开，放开一些事情了。

Anyway minus off the sudden purge of unhappiness.. I haven been updating as often compared to the past due to my hectic job life. I always tot that I wouldnt survive long in this co but surprisingly I proved myself wrong and I have been with the same firm for 6 mths. Time flies man! Not to worry, beside working hard in my career, I have also been living my life to the fullest since the month of Sept till date.. =)

I know I shld control the amount of time going out but I cant help myself. Like I said previously, I need time to settle certain stuffs thou I donno the amount of time that will take.

I get to know some new fren lately named "B" & "J".
J asked me "You always appear to be bright & cheerful, I bet you seldom have any worries or trouble"
I paused for a sec and before I can answer to J's qns, B answered on my behalf. "She is someone who doesnt shows her upsetness to ppl" Haa.. Smart B

Yea, another happy news is... Stephy is heading to TW at the end of this week and BKK in the mth of Feb!

* 那幸福不灭的定律你的手心不一定要由我握紧就像恒星总会有发光的原因 Oh I believe 你值得被珍惜也值得我放弃*

2009-10-17T16:45:00.002+08:00

三分钟热度的我

Perhaps the problem lies within me myself. Nothing seems to be able to catch my attention for long.

Im already very sick and tired of all this. I need and want to make changes to my life but I need time thou I donno how long I will take..
1/2 a month, 1/2 a year or 1 year?

2009-10-06T10:31:00.003+08:00

Its just a matter of time for people to move on, for people to forget, for the necessary changes...

Mentally drained...

Happened to see this online.. Nice =)

如果有一天我消失了，你会不会害怕会不会发了疯地找我？然后因为找不到我而难过?
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在家里呆呆地坐着，傻傻地掉着泪等我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会锁起日记，只为我开，只为我留言？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天无数次地点击我的空间，看我来过的痕迹？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会认真的用心看着我空间的每篇文章？然后发觉我其实挺爱你！
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在半夜突然醒来，想我想到泣不成声？无法入眠？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会每天开着Q，开着游戏等我？
如果有一天我消失了，当你看到好友上线时会不会一阵紧张，以为是我？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会看着无聊的肥皂剧流泪？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会在街上走的时候想到我，想到蹲在地上哭泣？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会像上面我说的一样去做？
如果有一天你消失了，以上就是我的写照，如果你爱我，你也一定会，是吗？

如果有一天我消失了，不是因为我不爱你了，是因为我身不由己。
如果有一天我消失了，你一定要好好照顾你自己，不要再让我担心你。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我怕见到你，怕你告诉我你即将离去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我心已死，需要有人来将那一道道伤痕抹去。
如果有一天我消失了，那是因为我得不到你的吻你的拥抱你的爱...

曾经以为恋爱就要轰轰烈烈一旦触动就一发不可收拾。
可是现实总是残酷，时间总是折磨人。
美好的时光总是很短暂，而长时间的美好却又是将来痛苦的根源。
回忆总是捉弄人，人总是被牵着走。
不管是男人女人大人小孩老人，都被玩弄于手掌。
如果有一天我消失了，你也不会找我的吧。
你会顺其自然等我出现，还说勉强没有幸福，该怎样就怎样世界上没有什么了不起的东西。
是啊...
我们已经不再年轻，不是以前冲动的小孩。
渐渐成熟懂得思考什么有利，什么没用。
不会再象以前那样傻傻的等，傻傻的追。

有时候，爱情会成为一种习惯。
习惯去照顾一个人，习惯被一个人照顾，习惯某个时间他出现，习惯某个时间他离开。
但往往，习惯是最可怕的东西。
如果有一天，他突然不在了...
第一天，你会觉得很庆幸，有一种被解放的自由。
第二天，没什么感觉，还可以很快乐。
第三天，心里好象少了点什么，心惶惶的，带着一些不安。
慢慢的，寂寞，孤独会象排山倒海一样袭来。
感觉做什么都不对，好象身体少了一部分，心空空的。
怎么样也填不满，怎么样也开心不起来。
终于，习惯，变成了，不习惯...
如果有一天我消失了，不能在你身旁照顾你，你会习惯吗？
也许是因为太在意所以才会太担心离开。
如果真的要离开，我不是害怕自己难过，而是害怕没有人能好好的照顾你，帮你分担。
如果有一天我消失了，请你一定要比我幸福。

亲爱的，如果我消失了，这将是我的遗书...
这是我第一次这样叫你，也可能是最后一次！
如果有一天我消失了，我还没告诉你其实我一直都在一个网站每天都写下对你的思恋和牵挂...
如果有一天我消失了，我还没有来得及告诉你，我真的准备和你一起走完此生...
如果有一天我消失了，我看不到有谁会为我哭泣，为我伤心！我想象有你，却无法证实。
如果有一天我消失了，有谁会来为我完成心里头一直放不下的事...
我以为我是一个视生命于不屑的人，是一个对生命没有眷念的人，但就在今天我忽然发现自己对死亡的恐惧，原来我也只是一个偶尔会发神经质的普通女人，无法做到无牵无挂的消失人间...
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会知道其实你是很爱我，其实你是真的很在乎我的？
如果有一天我消失了，你会不会一直等我？等我回到你身边...

是不是我真的消失了你才会发现身边还有个我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会想起来很想珍惜我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会知道怎么样来爱我？
是不是我真的消失了你才会感觉到当初我爱你？
是不是我真的消失了你才会舍得给我一私可怜？
是不是我真的消失了你才会明白你真的失去了？
是不是我真的消失了你才会懂得什么是真的爱？
是不是我真的消失了你才会伤心到想要再爱我？

2009-09-21T22:46:00.001+08:00

2009-09-16T11:11:00.000+08:00

Happy 23rd birthday Ms Tan :)

2009-09-07T22:51:00.000+08:00

Good things just happen when you least expected it

2009-09-03T13:48:00.002+08:00

Angela told me: 童话并不是虚构，只是看你有没有心去做

True, 只要有决心总有一天，童话也有可能会变成实现但是 will that day ever come? Im not saying that I do not belive in fairytales anymore. I still do but something just make me feel that maybe its way better for 童话 to remain as it is =)
在我心中童话依然是一件很美很幸福的事.

Im going to "Play" this weekend.. =)

2009-08-27T13:40:00.001+08:00

I wanna party !!!

2009-08-25T19:57:00.003+08:00

In another 3 weeks time, its gonna be my birthday..
Coming soon to 23 yr old this year..

Im planning a birthday present for myself.. A short getaway in the nearby country for myself by myself. It may not fall on Sept but probably on Oct'09..
Looking out for the best deals in town...

Im meeting No.1 and No.4 to go clubbing this Friday but I will be working on the following Sat.. Oh Gosh! Anyway, I decided to go ahead bcos No.1 seldom jio this kind of activities mah.. I hope that we wouldnt party till too late! They said whoever back off, shall bear the whole outing cost.. Haa!

=) Baby Claire has arrived.. Glad to know that she is a healthy and lovely baby from Sherry.. Once I recover from my flu, Im gonna pay them a visit..

Another happy issue that happens in the month of Aug is Farn and Lijun are holding their customary on this coming sept... Was pretty shocked to hear that they are going to hold their customary as I have always knew them as a married couple bcos they have already ROM for 5 - 6 years!

Sometime life can be very complicated but sometime it can be simple also..
Sometime happiness can be just within reach but ppl choose to ignore it bcos they desire something more.. The pursuit of happiness? We gotta catch it ourself.
Often people attempt to live their lives backwards but the fact is we cant..
Out of difficulties, make miracle...

Quote

2009-08-18T21:22:00.001+08:00

to fall in love is always easy
to start a relationship is always simple
to build it, is always tough
to maintain it, is 'better said than done'
to break off, is 'easier said than done'
to remain friends after u broke off, is never possible
to forget the memories is 'always doing but never succeeding'

2009-08-13T16:09:00.002+08:00

Met up with Becky and MK for lunch yesterday noon since we are all working in the vicinity. We are planning for an outing this Saturday. Our planning is to go for some window shopping at Suntec and also to look for Jessie and when nightfall, we can have some drinking / MJ session at Becky hse.

Been on Skype with them eversince MK started working on Vtech. Its nice having companion to talk to when u are bored at office.

Last night went for a late supper with my gals @ west coast mac… I love my gals.. Really been trying to make an effort to meet up with them whenever I can.. I really cherish them

Quiz

2009-08-11T14:19:00.002+08:00

I feel this is so true for me

往好處想你是一個總是向前看的人，既然逝者已矣，再來當然是來者可追啦，對於無法挽回的事，你也不會太過強求，你相信，強摘的果子是不會甜的.但是在別人眼裡，不免覺得你有些寡情，好像一旦發生了什麼事，你就會頭也不回的走人。或許偶爾你也會覺得懊悔，某些其實還大有可能的事物，就這樣被你放棄了，與其如此，不如在下判斷時多花點時間想一想，什麼才是你不悔的決定呢？...

溫柔是你性格中的寶藏。你不喜歡顯山露水，情緒容易波動，很在乎周圍人的想法和感受。你常為別人的不快樂而焦慮，恨不得立刻去幫助他，因此你的人緣不錯。可是當你自己碰到困境時，卻常常往壞處想，是悲觀的女生，不小心還有習慣性的自怨自艾。在心上人面前你不太會積極主動，只能默默付出，等待對方注意到你。要是有朋友和你喜歡上同一個對象，你可能還會退讓成全他們。這樣的態度，會讓你離幸福越來越遠，一定要小心哦！...

你是一個失去以後就會覺得後悔的類型的人，所以你最唸唸不忘的人不是別人，是最近的失去的人。例如上一個戀人，你會因為失去而懊惱不已，但凡是因為你自己的原因而失去的人，你就會一直記挂著他們，卻忽略了在你身邊的人。經常會顧此失彼，你是在交往和分開的時候沒有想到，分開後才知道自己多麼在乎的人。...

Night out to BQ

2009-08-10T22:33:00.008+08:00

I went out to meet Farn and gangs at Paradize centre..

Kelly was there as well..
I don feel like blogging today.. See the photos ba...

My very 1st photo taken with Kelly.

Farn told me just a few ppl gathering only.

I didnt know that were such a huge group.. If i know, i sure wont go down moreover it was like "farewell gathering" for Derrick as he is gg for POC course. Thou i know some of them but not very close mah and I very anti-social one.. Wahahah..

Anyway some of the new friends that I made... Kenneth, malvin and gf..

Kelly and Me and the 2 clowns behind..

The pub at Paradize closed at 1am? Den we moved on to Blue Blaze..
Another pub which I used to freq as well..

The ladies..

Mr and Mrs Bae Lei Ko

Me & Lijun

I miss her.. havent seen her for 3 mths!

Me and Jessie

Kev, Ong, Minde

Donno why but 2 of them said that I look different.. Gave them a different feelings.. Perhaps pretty? wahhaaha... Jus kidding

Went home at 4+am.. Slightly high..

MJ @ Moon hse

2009-08-09T16:43:00.000+08:00

Happy National Day, Singapore!

Spent my Saturaday night at Moon hse (NorthVale Condo) playing MJ..

Thats Ailun, Me, Jing, Moon sitting down chaning coins for us and Xin taking pictures of us..

We played MJ for awhile and chit chatted the night away, with the company of 3 bottle of wines..
I cant imagine that we can talk all the way till today morning 830am -_-"

Thou it was very tiring but I enjoyed myself...

BFFs Celebration

2009-08-04T20:30:00.003+08:00

Jus woke up from my nap and here I am blogging on my wonderful weekend spent..

As planned, BFFs have all make ourselves free on 2nd August. We have also applied for additional day of leave on 3rd August in order to celebrate our friendship day..

A celebration to our 14 or even more years of together-ness...
We met up at 12pm and had our lunch at Vivo City, Sushi Tei

Thereafter we went on to Cold Storage & Dennis Wine to buy stuffs that we will need; like tibbits & wine to last us the night at Sentosa..

Proceed to the Monorail Counter and gotten our free tix as we have booked a hotel room with them.

The very typical friendster/FB photo

Welcome to Sentosa!

Donno what is she doing.. Probably promoting the wines that we have bought.. Probably her sign of chiong-ing to the hotel

3 ladies = 1 market
4 ladies = Disaster

Check into our hotel 1st... Siloso beach resort, the garden roof suites!

The 1st thing that we do upon entering the room is we all headed straight up to the Jacuzzi rooftop..!

We are very happy bcos this is the very 1st time we spent time together.. I mean a short getaway together..

The nice and queen size bed.. Abit crampy thou to contain the 4 of us but it still okay as we arent very big size.

We rested awhile on the bed and Jing knock out within 10 secs..

The 3 of us carry on with our hilarious acts

I like the below photo alot =)

Us looking cool

We then get our ass out of the cozy room and went for Luge Ride

We have a lil bet going on here.. Loser shall treat drinks.. Hehe

Jing looking so stiff and scare while taking the skyride up..

Even thou we were seated in 2 different benches but we still managed to take photos together..

Yea, thats me... =P

Didnt managed to capture any photos during our 1st ride as Jing went off earlier but eventually, Bee, Xin and Me catch up with her and while waiting for her, we took a pic

Jing asking for help as she was struck.. The ride wont move...

She complained that she isnt going to play the ride anymore as she was scare but we say No to her request as we bought the tix for 2 rides in total. She was being persuaded by us therein, here we are..

Our 2nd ride

Mine and xin

We went Siloso Beach for a walk and gotten a passerby to take this photo for us...

Some of our self-timer photos

Super-models in town.. Wahaha

Jacuzzi that face the sea! We managed to watch sunset to evening falls together.. A very nice view..

Our red wine floating with the water...

We decided to try some super FHM move

The above is the best shots we can get.. It was so hard to get the best view and very tiring.. Haa!

We dry ourselves up and went Cafe De Mar for our dinner..

Starting from the eldest... Wahahah

Bee

Jing

Xin

Our dinner arrived...

My ladies, My fairies...

Some AngMos offered to get us a round of drinks..

That was very nice of them but there was one very talkative Mexican who chatted non-stop and soon we find him to be irritating.. -_-"

We seek his pals help to bring him away den we sneak away.. wahahaha..

Back into our room, we went to 泡澡 again and chatted there..

Our bra and panties and the LV bags... wahahah...

Us in our sleepwear

Once again, Jing fallen asleep at close to 1am while the rest of us chit chatted our night away..

Ms chen kept me and bee up till 5am? I very long nv tong night till so late lor!

Me...

Checkout of the hotel at 12pm.. And we headed over to Vivo again for LJS..

Good time always passes fast.. But there will definitely be more chances for us to have a short getaway..

Anyway what matters the most is the 4 of us are together.. They are a joy to have, to hold on althou at time they can be very LOUD.. wahhaha.. Love my gals lotsa..

Bubble wedding

2009-08-02T10:45:00.002+08:00

A day whereby I met up with friends whom I havent seen for ages!

First of all, I met up with Ms Angela to attend Ms Geraldine/Bubble's ROM..
She held her wedding at Pasir Ris Chalet.. I forgotten the name.. Haa!

Me & Ms Angela

It really have been very long since we took a photo together..

Us with Bubble

We stayed at Bubble's ROM for 1hr + before we make a move and headed for Harbour Front to meet up with Jolin (always favourite god-sis) and her 2 little gals..

The last time when I saw SiEn & SiQi was when they are only a few mths old -_-"

The 2 little gals, they have grown up so much... 4 and 3 year old..
SiEn really resemble Jolin alot whereby SiQi got the "pinch me' looks..

The ladies..

We also managed to meet up with QuiYan..

Wow Wow, do you know how long havent I saw QuiYan? The last time i saw her was 4 - 5 years ago.. This gal every time like to play the MIA moves.. Im glad to hear that she is happily engaged now..

Im also happy to know that at least now Jolin is better-off.. But I hope she knows that we will always be there for her if she ever needs us..

During our meet up, we were happily reminiscing on those days we spent together @ TWSS... The notorious acts that we did, the "Ah Lian" lifestyle.. Hee..

It really take fate for ppl to meet but it is how you wanna maintain the friendship given to u.
Although I havent been seeing this group of gals for ages, we might not be as close compared to the past but Im thankful that for once they have been into my life.. But I definitely will make more efforts to meet up with them often!

Not forgetting, as I went to Social House with Angela for awhile.. While waiting for her friends to arrive, a young chap came over to know us and that was when I heard the ever-worst pickup line ever...
He said some things like " The moment I saw your friend here, my heart flow into her bag. Can I get my heart back from your bag"?
Wa Piangz.., The moment I heard this, it gave me goosebumps -_-"

Sentosa with Bffs in a few more hrs.. =)

My 1st Poll

2009-07-29T09:58:00.008+08:00

My 1st Poll.. Please vote

I went out with MK last night to ECP. That guy had actually wanted to meet me at ECP but after much persistent pestering to him, he came over to pick me up in his bike. Why I said I pester him bcos initially he doesn’t want to ferry me as he said ride bike very dangerous.
I had long lost count of the time when I hasn’t sat bike. Probably 7 years or even more! The last bike I sat on was Andy. He used to be on a good terms with me but donno since when we have already lost contact.

Had our dinner at MAC and we settled down in benches facing the beach. Had a heart to hear t chat with him. Sounds romantic right? No, don be mistaken. MK and me are just very good friends.
Den something unexpected happened just like that... 2 Malay guys came over to approach me and MK. They asked if we are Singaporean and said they are from NEA, asked us to show them our ID. They said they have been watching us and we have been littering and they need to issue us a fine! Damnz it lor. Total damage $300 per pax.
MK really make me burst out into laughter when the authority asked for our ID, instead of pleading with them to waive off the charges, his only question to them is: we don have to do CWO right?

This is my 2nd time getting fined for all this shit. So suay lor. Total damages for this July is $1K+ dollars lor. I could have bought a branded bag with all this monies -_-"

Upset

2009-07-28T10:06:00.014+08:00

There are numbers of blog posts which I havent blog out. I am blogging out this post 1st bcos I am really very unhappy as of now. The rest of the other post, I will do a back-blog post.
Someone close whom I thought will always be there for me have left me

The Island Im Supposed To Go

Meeting up with MK tonight at ECP for some short drinks =)

Anyway something funny to share:
Women need a reason to have sex. Men only need a place to have sex.
By Billy Crystal

Outing with the guys

2009-07-27T22:41:00.000+08:00

WoWo...

Mr ChairMan, Daniel and Mr Secretary organised a gathering for the batchboys / friends on 26th July 2009.. It have been ages since the group meetup!

Certain pals, I haven seen them for close to an yr..

Mui, Beng and Tham was the 1st to arrive, followed by me.

We had our steamboat at 天下第一火锅 located at Aliwah Street.. Next to Beer Belly, a pub where we used to hang out together.

Bernard and Daniel came after we have settle ourselves nicely in the resturant.

Had a long dinner with them from 620pm - 920pm...
Kevin came late but still he manged to dine with us for awhile

The whole group of us.. Friends who I have know since 2004... In the past, we used to hang out so frequently.. Be it drinking, MJ or anything but as time goes by, ppl settle down... We hang out less but it is definitely a great time of catching up with one another by having this kind of steamboat gathering~

There is a part 2 going on...
After dinner, some pals who are able to make it when to S Club located at Purvis Street...
For those who cant, went home.. For me, I went ahead with part 2..

Us in Tham car..

With Mr Green Balloon..

Hmm... I think Tham is a better cam-whorer compared to me.. Wahahha

The group who carry on with part 2

The guys who used to be so close...

Im the next chairman in line... Gotta organised an other outing for the group in another 2 - 3 mths time. Hopefully by than, ev one will be able to make it..
Hope to see them real soon..

Really feel very at ease when with them

Outing with Qizhi

2009-07-22T22:46:00.000+08:00

After so long I finally get to meet QiZhi yesterday
We arranged to meet at Bugis and that dear guy friend of mine made me waited ½ an hr for him.

Had our dinner at Billy Bombers and we witness a family arguing with the staffs there. Chatted from 7 – 10pm. A good long 3 hrs!

The sweet guy who will always remember my bday

Me & Him

My 1st coach shoes

2009-07-17T19:41:00.000+08:00

Was at home last night and Ah yi jio me to Raffles City for some window shopping.. As soon as I parked the car, we took e escalator up, we went into Coach outlet... And there I saw some things that I really like and since I have always been wanting to own a branded shoes, I bought

My 1st branded shoes...

Nice or not? I find them very chio! Hee...

It have been a long long time since I last pampered myself ;)

Ah yi bday

2009-07-16T13:41:00.001+08:00

Celebrated Ah Yi bday today at home.
Hugs to my dearest family..